Michelle ainslie

Author and Artist

I create art, both written and illustrated, that depicts what it is like to live with various forms of anxiety and depression. My work is there as a point of resonance for anyone going through the same. 

It’s my way of saying:

I see you.

I understand.

I know what it’s like.

You are not alone. 

AND OUR ART HOLDS THE WAY THROUGH.

I find that it resonates with a very particular type of person – my fiercely creative tribe. 

Are YOU one of us?

Do you feel scared, tired, lonely and sad almost all the time?

If you answered yes, you may also be experiencing one or more of the following:

  • Periods of depression, sometimes so bad that you are suicidal
  • Severe episodes of anxiety that can compel you to harm yourself
  • Ritualistic or obsessive behaviour
  • A past or current battle with an eating disorder
  • Racing thoughts
  • Periods of euphoria (which are often short-lived)
  • A desperately low self-esteem

On the plus side,

I am pretty sure you also have a sprinkling of these attributes:

  • Incredibly creative and talented (writer, artist, dancer, musician)
  • Deeply intuitive and empathetic
  • A desire to make a difference
  • A strong need to do work that has meaning

The problem you may be facing:

So little of your true potential is being reached. Perhaps your levels of anxiety and depression have become so bad that you battle to function on a day-to-day basis. You know that you have an incredible amount to give, but you have so little energy left, and quite frankly, it just feels like too much.

Sometimes it feels impossible to get through another day.

I hear you. I see you.

You’re not alone.

I know EXACTLY how you feel.

I have been navigating the darkness of anxiety and depression since I was very young. I’ve been suicidal many, many times. My anxious personality has punched me into the walls of bulimia, anorexia, and self-harm. But the glass in my brain not only hurts me – it also reflects my greatest light.

I learned early on that the best way to move through an episode was not to fight it, but rather to befriend it. I jump on the dragon’s back and let it fly where it needs to go. I harness the tremendous energy of the darkness and use it to create my best work. Before I can put colour to canvas or onto the page, however, I need to bite down and feel the pain. This is how visual journalling saved my life. It helps me breathe my way through. Sometimes I find comfort or discover answers, and always – always – I am reunited with hope.

It’s incredibly difficult. I have the scars engraved across my life to prove it. I mess up often. But for all the hundreds of times I have fallen, I have picked myself back up again just as many times. I wipe off the blood and stare life in the face again.

I’m fierce. I’m tenacious. I’m resilient. I will not let it take me down.

I know you’re the same.

It’s what brought you here in the first place.

So let’s ride this dragon together.

Here’s how I can help:

  1. My books and art. I explore the intricate layers of anxiety and depression, with the intention of not only expressing my own emotions, but to also help you feel less alone and more understood.
  2. My signature online course: Reminiscence. This is where magical visual art meets sacred creativity. We dive deep into sensory language, metaphor, images and layered reflection.  It’s an innovative technique that I developed over the course of 25 years, and now I am offering this to the world for the very first time. It’s wild writing, richly combined with images, that blindsides the logical part of your brain and goes straight for the truth. It’s a game-changer. 

To get a free glimpse into what I do and how it can help you, download the preview for 300 Grams, as well as the accompanying journalling ritual, Memory Magic. This will allow you to experience my technique and feel the difference that it can make.

Whatever you’re facing right now;

Be bold.

Colour wildly outside the lines.

And always, always dare to believe in hope.